Helpless

Crap, I’ve been ignoring this blog all week. Not that anyone is reading it. I would be surprised if anyone was reading this blog.
On a happier side note: my Web site, alesserevil.com, has been updated.

There are a lot of things in this world that we can control. What we eat, where we shop, how we dress. However, I’ve been feeling less in control lately. This last Thursday, my bike broke. I think it’s been damaged for awhile, it just finally broke. The smallest-rear cog broke and I know it’s been why I haven’t been able to pedal hard lately. No big, my dad came up for the weekend and brought a spare cassette. So he and I fixed it on Saturday afternoon.
That evening I wanted to make something nice for dinner and had originally thought of this kick-ass halibut recipe and I was also going to introduce my dad to my girlfriend (I’m withholding her name, not out of disrespect, but because you probably don’t now her anyway). My roommates had other plans. I’ll admit that they asked me if I wanted to do their plans on another night but I only thought their plan was dinner. It was, in a sense; I just didn’t realize they had invited some other people too.
My dad felt out of place because of the age group and my girlfriend didn’t care for the conversations/entertainment. One of them brought a guitar and impersonated Borat; funny, but not in good company. My girlfriend left early in the evening and my dad took off early the next morning when he woke.
Sunday wasn’t bad for me. I didn’t really do much. However, my girlfriend got into a car accident. She’s OK, but shaken by the experience. She’s been stressed this semester and this just adds to that stress. She has a strong will and is currently burying her emotions in school work. We talked this evening not more then an hour ago and I can’t help but feel completely helpless in the situation. I know things will work out and I know we’ll have good times again.
It’s just hard to see the end of something when you’re in the middle. You know: Helpless.